Happy New Year & What's To Come In 2020
Happy New Year! I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas break if you were fortunate enough to have time off? This year I’ve fully embraced my break from work which isn’t something I usually do as I’m typically worrying about what I should or shouldn’t be doing and I’ve loved every single second of it, sometimes we all need a day laying on the sofa eating whatever we want and watching Grey’s Anatomy whilst it’s still on Amazon Prime. I’m trying to go into a new decade and a new year as I mean to go on which means resting when possible and topping up my cup as we all know by now that you cannot pour from an empty cup. And this is what else is to come for me and this little internet space in the next twelve months.
for me
I feel like the first thing that I need to say is I’M GETTING MARRIED THIS YEAR. The registrar and the venue are booked and next Autumn my boyfriend and I with Josie and Edie stood by our side at the altar will be married and I couldn’t be more excited. Getting married is something that I’ve wanted for what feels like forever, there aren’t many things I feel like I’ve strived for so far in my life but if there is one thing I’ve always wanted it’s to be a wife. Apart from getting married which I can’t deny will probably take up a lot of my brain space for 2020 all I want is a year of feeling happy, being healthy as I can be and working hard on this little internet space. Last year I let fear control how I worked, I felt like so much of the year was run on pure anxiety and there wasn’t much of the year where I didn’t feel like I was struggling mentally in some way. So in the past month or so I’ve looked at what was making me feel that way and whilst there are some things that I can’t control there are some things I can and I was letting myself be controlled by them. Last year taught me that living with mental illness isn’t straight forward. There will be highs and lows and that’s ok and I know what I need now which is a lot more progress than I’ve had in recent years and I hope it’s something that I can continue.
for from roses
Whilst I feel like I’ve said this a lot in the last couple of years I want this year to be the year I get that drive back for blogging I once had and make this little corner of the internet everything I think it can be. Pushing myself to get out of my comfort zone is something I know I need to do, somewhere I lost my fearlessness and drive with sharing things and let the fear take over and it’s totally irrational and has no place in my job. Something else that has clouded my vision a lot when it comes to creating content for From Roses is this worry I now have toward sharing myself online. Aswell as the pressure to constantly create something that has some deep profound meaning when sometimes I just want to write about something that's completely materialistic but brings me a lot of joy and I think it’s ok to try and strike a balance between the two. Next week there's an entire in-depth post about what's to come for this little corner of the internet in the next year but I'm feeling really excited about what could possibly happen.
